On Being a Parent With Suicidal Thoughts


By Kimberly Zapata It is just after 6 a.m. when the sunlight reaches my bedroom. It sneaks in — slipping between a thin, vertical crack in our curtains — and rouses me from my sleep. I take a long, deep breath: the warmth of the day fills my mouth, my throat, and my lungs. But when … Continue reading On Being a Parent With Suicidal Thoughts

Chester Bennington’s Death — And The Conversation We Should Be Having


By Kimberly Zapata I read the headline with shock and disbelief: dead? Chester Bennington — the lead singer of Linkin Park — was dead? He couldn’t be. I mean, he is (well, he was) the voice of my childhood. It was Linkin Park and Bennington which carried me through the long, angst-ridden days of adolescence, and the lonely, anxiety-ridden nights. … Continue reading Chester Bennington’s Death — And The Conversation We Should Be Having

4 Myths About Suicide That Survivors Want You To Understand


By Kimberly Zapata The first time I tried to kill myself I was 17 years old. I wrote a note and made a plan. I bought a bottle of pills (and a bottle of Coke) and I began executing said plan. But after swallowing several dozen capsules, things got fuzzy. The next 36 hours were a blur … Continue reading 4 Myths About Suicide That Survivors Want You To Understand

To The Suicidal Mama Struggling To Stay Alive


By Kimberly Zapata Dearest Mama, You may not know me — and I may not know you — but I see you. I get you. I understand you. I know exactly what you are thinking and how you feel. Of course, I know that may not mean much. My virtual compassion does not make you feel any … Continue reading To The Suicidal Mama Struggling To Stay Alive